I don’t blame you;
For the fact that my childhood wasn’t like anyone else, or that my family dynamic is not what we all thought it would be.
For all the mistakes I made in my life, or how I was unable to fix most of them because i wasn’t exactly given the tools I need because you and dad did most everything for me and I didn’t have to fend for my self when I was a kid.
For feeling alone and feeling as though you could have and should have done better.
I don’t blame you.
I do blame you;
For never listening to me when I told you I had a bad feeling about some of the men you brought around us and yourself.
For never wanting to settle our differences.
For always giving me the cold shoulder when I am simply asking if you are okay.
I blame YOU for giving us the relationship you had with your mom.